So today is my friends birthday I was kind of hoping we would be dating right now, but that didn't work out because he felt that he wants to just have lots of dates with different girls before his mission instead of going steady. Which is a really good thing of him to decide to do, of course I was hoping he would change his mind but by now I realize that's not going to happen. Anyways as I said before today is his birthday and Im working all day in the gym, which is fine because they are going to the beach and I just don't really know if I could even come. Like a lot of his friends/ mine encouraged me to go to things with them/him but if the invitation doesn't come from him then I usually don't feel as motivated to go. Plus I wouldn't want him to ever feel obligated. Anyways thats just a random little tid bit in my life that I felt was worthy of writing down since it has been a main issue these past couple of weeks. I figure that I can only be stregnthened from this experience. Plus I figure that if it was meant to work out it would.
Anyways regardless of this small issue Iv'e still had a pretty great week, like I know before I was basically spending every day with him for about 14 days so of course I feel a little bummed about the detachment but it's okay. He really was like one of my best friends and it would be fine if it was really a we just can't date issue but its not turned out that way. It basically means there is no gaurantee I will see him this week or next, like we still hang out but only a couple times a week at most.
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