college starts!

So today July 16th I am going (hopefully) to a college orientation, I have yet to receive my student i.d so I have a little bit of anxiety wondering if they will let me, but we shall see. Basically it is a rather big week of my life, tomorrow I will start going to the student ward and Im extremely excited about that! It starts at 8am but I guess that is the price to pay, maybe hopefully tonight I will find someone who is going to the same ward. Worse comes to worse if I get too anxious tonight I will just leave, I wont force myself to stick around because Id rather not. I am actually bringing a wallet now, well I bought a wallet medium sized, but a really small one came with this church bag I brought so im bringing that. It feels odd in my back pocket but I think I will get used to it.
I think I am pretty good at meeting people so this Shouldn't be too tough but we shall see :).
It is 6:38 right now and the party at the game room starts at 7!!! So that's pretty soon, I don't know if I want to be early or fashionably late. I don't think I show it but I get very nervous over things like the first day of school. But its good that I am going to do first term July 21st because then hopefully I will meet more people before my birthday sep 12 where I turn 18!
Today my family and I went to an elder quorums (church gathering) that my dad was involved in. We also brought with us my friend Brittany who was coming to hang out with me, I feel a little nervous that I didnt give her enough attention (I haven't seen her for like a month) but we also brought some other friends of our family so I wanted to make sure Everyone knew that I was super glad that they came. I think I spend a lot of time wondering whether or not people were offended, which is good because it makes me very aware of peoples feelings sometimes but then other times its just being a little paranoid haha. My dad says it just means that I try to please people. So that's good in some cases. Funny because before I go to bed sometimes situations run through my head and Im nervous that I accidentally offended someone over a tiny issue that they probably didnt remember. But like I think it lets people know I care so that's good.
My hair is dripping on my back, honestly I don't think I will know anyone there tonight. The people there might not know anyone else either so I should just be friendly. Honestly this will sound like a very "Kelsey" thing to say but sometimes guys are easier to talk to then girls. I'm very nervous about getting new friends that are girls, because I have great girlie friends but I think I just got lucky. With girls I can totally talk with and Click with sometimes, but its like a hit or miss kind of thing.
6:49- its getting closer, my stomach is twisting a little bit and yes I just analyzed my hand and its ever so slightly shaking. I should just get over that though because I give off the impression to my friends that I am perfectly confident, which is a nice reputation to have but today im going completely alone so we shall see. 
Its kind of like my fear for the dark if I'm with someone the darkness doesn't bother me one speck, but alone even the most obvious shadows make me rather nervous. Love meeting new people but its nice to have a friend to fall back on knowing that they will love you regardless. Thats the tough thing about starting college is that I gotta get tight with a bunch of girls, because guys are great to meet but in the end Gals before Pals, because if you only talk to guys you will seem like a flirt, and you need girls who stick with you through thick or thin. Kind of makes me want to bring my sister sheridan.
6:54- I love my siblings, honestly it is rather wonderful to have so many of them, for the obvious reasons like being able to hang with them all the time, their unwavering love, loyalty and things like that. When giving talks in church Im starting to get a lot less nervous because all I need to do is look out and see my family and I know that without a doubt even if I mess up terribly they will honestly think the same of me.
6:55- I wanted to wear a belt because these pants are slightly loose but I cant find the one I wanted, I like the game room because I am slightly good at all the games. I think Im going to bring my class schedule to prove that Im starting school. What if they dont let me in?? Maybe in that way it would be good to go early before anyone else came.
6.57- slightly hard to breathe haha. Nah Im sure I will be fine Im really good at meeting people honestly,
I think I talk about myself a little too much though.
6:58- by this point I realize Im going to try tyhe whole fashionably late thing, I want to get myself a new set of scriptures, because I really want one, and a CTR ring but some things are good to wait until after birthdays because Id hate to buy myself scriptures if my parents bought me some.
6:59- this is ridiculous, I really should just go already. I will probably honestly pray before I go, I honestly pray for a lot of things I love the scripture "ask and it shall be given" I would run and figure out the exact verse and reference but it is 7:00!!!